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An Invitation to Lament

8/25/2017

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I’ve been deeply saddened by the events in Charlottesville, more than I can put into words. I’ve wondered if I should or even could speak to it. Or is the better option to let it go, allowing others to speak instead. My voice hardly seems necessary - really, what is there to say.

Then, I started reading about the lament Psalms in The Message of the Psalms by Walter Brueggemann. It has been an enlightening read as I am preparing to teach a course. Brueggemann speaks about the Psalms within culture, Israel’s and ours. He defines the lament Psalms as psalms of disorientation. He explains the Book of Psalms through a lens of spirituality which reminds me of the way spiritual writers speak about transformation.

Brueggemann starts with psalms of orientation. This is a place of understanding our life of faith from the settledness we experience. It is a place of contentment and gratitude. We are thankful to be in a good place and expect that goodness to continue. We believe we are blessed and taken care of.

However, we are likely to deceive ourselves by either being unwilling or unable to grasp that this place of peace isn’t experienced by everyone.  Often times the goodness we experience is at the expense of another people group. Unfortunately, this is usually beneath or outside of our awareness.

When Israel was used as slaves in Egypt, those in Egypt probably saw that as good fortune and Israel, not so much. When Solomon built a beautiful temple, he actually used slaves. I’m sure the slaves might have held a different view than the elite of Israel might have experienced. It seems this divide of oppression is held within an us versus them culture.

Our contemporary culture is set up in a way where it is difficult to become aware of our blind spots. We avoid change - either from pain or even held within a surprise. We tend to prefer things to remain the same. We prefer the status quo. This is our nature.

Then something happens in our life or in the world around us; a loss, a death, a transition of some kind. These kinds of experiences move us into the psalms of disorientation. Spiritual writers call this movement an invitation to grow deeper in our relationship with our true selves and with God.

Often, in our current Christian church culture, we tend to skate over the depth of pain and proclaim our trust in God without giving words to our lived experience. It seems we believe that to openly express our deep hurt, anger, or sadness to God or even each other is either unsafe or viewed as lack of faith. It feels like a place of pretending that all is okay.

In the psalms of disorientation, we see Israel act differently. They cry out, sharing all of what they are feeling. We see anger, distrust, and wonder at why God isn’t rescuing them. Even in the beloved Psalm 139, there are words of vengeance that make our contemporary ears tune out. Yet, Israel wasn’t acting outside of faith by sharing these deep emotions but living into a bold faith, knowing that God was for them and with them always.

The next movement is toward a new orientation, which again is a place of settledness. These Psalms remember the struggle of the past and are filled with gratitude for being met by God. With regard to our own journey of transformation, this new place we are able to hold a much larger view of God as we surrender to our own belovedness. It is important, I believe, to not rush these stages but to fully experience them.

The gift of the lament is that it gives words to the lived experience which allows this deep work to be fully transforming. When it comes to Charlottesville, I don’t have the words yet to hold all I am feeling. It seems, at least to me, that the invitation is to rest in the lament and allow God to teach us and show us how to navigate our new understanding and awareness of the old struggle of hatred and division we have witnessed once again.

The division in our nation and the old tendrils of hatred we had hoped were gone, are still here. I would imagine in our own individual loss and discomfort of what we are experiencing, we could write psalms of lament much like those in Scripture. Maybe that would be a good practice.

What do we notice in our discomfort? What do we notice in ourselves within the loss of seeing our own tendency to prefer our status quo and the damage that may cause to those around us? Within what we notice in ourselves, what do we notice about our understanding of God’s character; understood by action or inaction? So much of how we experience life has to do with our understanding of ourselves, God, and those around us.

Let me invite you to take what you notice to God and ask for God’s view. We’ve talked about this practice using the Examen prayer last time. I find that God’s view is usually different and toward a deeper place than my own view. I believe that it is from this place, we can actually move forward within a new orientation; holding a bigger view of God, surrendering to our own belovedness, and leading to graciousness within ourselves for the other.

Brueggemann, Walter. The Message of the Psalms: A Theological Commentary. Minneapolis: Augsburg Publishing House, 1984.

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The Examen Prayer

8/7/2017

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Over the last several posts, I have shared about listening to our hearts and allowing whatever we  find there, to teach us. This morning, during prayer, I discovered that I was feeling a little overwhelmed by all I needed to do. There is a lot on my plate as I am working toward forming this ministry. I enjoy it all, but there is a lot to do.

In noticing my feeling of being overwhelmed, I could just push through it and tackle everything that is on my plate. I could also decide to not do some of it. I could even decide to take a nap!

The thing is, being overwhelmed isn’t a bad thing and it doesn’t need to be fixed. In noticing it and listening, I realized I am overwhelmed because, well... there is a lot to do. This is true and I enjoy doing all these tasks. The invitation is to notice, not judge or resist this feeling, allow it to teach me, and then let it go.

What I sensed through this process was an invitation to allow myself to be present in God’s presence. I can trust the journey one step at a time while following God’s lead and not the next hurried task. Even in so many things to do, the chaos of busyness can subside, and I can move forward one step at a time.
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In this transformational journey, we don’t become something different than we are. We become more fully who we have always been. The refinement or trueness of the journey is bringing us back to the likeness of God (Gen. 1:26-27) in which we were created. It seems amazing, yet true - how could it not be? 

The barriers and walls we put up, hide who we really are. They distort our very essence, both to ourselves and to others. We form them in reaction to something. They become a diversion to the true life journey we are invited to pursue. 

The dissonance in our lives, the despair, pain, loss - the unsettledness - what often feels like shifting sand beneath our feet are an invitation to embrace the uncomfortableness we feel. With God, we can discover the lies, fears, or doubts that are the root or support of any barrier. In this journey of continued self-discovery, we are becoming more and more our true selves, more fully in-tune with who God created us to be. Each of our strengths becomes ever so much deeper, fuller, and truer. 

So what do we do? We listen, we listen with our whole selves to what our inner teacher is teaching us. We listen to the unsettledness we feel. We notice our reactive responses and the places we are uncomfortable. Instead of reasoning them away, we listen to them and open ourselves to God’s gaze in the midst of the pain, unsettledness, loss or whatever is going on in our hearts. We listen…

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The practice I use as a regular rhythm in my life is The Examen Prayer. This prayer was first shared by Ignatius of Loyola during the 16th Century. It is an opportunity to look at what happens during a day with God. During the practice, you can either look at your day, one event at a time, or hold two contrasting questions. This is the handout I often use in the classes I teach. 

Examen Prayer
  • Find a comfortable spot to pray.
  • Close your eyes and breathe deeply to relax and become centered – become aware you are in God’s presence.
  • Take one of these two approaches.
    • Option 1: Walk through your day’s interactions. Start at the beginning and look at each encounter, thought, or event with God. Remember it isn’t about achieving but walking through it in God’s presence. Watch and listen to your heart for places to stop and ponder. When you notice something bubbling up, a check in your spirit, God’s nudge, take and notice how you felt and look at it with God. Ask for God’s view of it.
    • Option 2: Hold your day before God and think about one set of questions from the following list. As you think about them, notice what bubbles up for you. Then give your reactions, the event, and your feelings to God and ask for God’s view of it.
      • Where did I experience God today? Where did I not experience God
        today?
      • Where did I feel loved today? Where did I not feel loved today?
      • Where did I love today? Where did I not love today?  
  • As emotions arise, whatever they are, ask God to help you see more. For example, why am I anxious? Why do I feel hurt? What was I expecting? What am I feeling? Lord, what do you want to show me? This isn’t a time to correct yourself for your actions or to judge another person for theirs. It is a time to notice your own reactions and responses to an experience and see how God sees it. If you notice condemnation for the emotions you feel, it probably isn't God but your own false self. ​As we sit with God with regard to our feelings, God often reveals what is behind or underneath them. 
  • As you close this time, thank God for what was revealed through your time together.
  • Reflect on your experience. I often do this through journaling a response to God.

A continual practice of the Examen Prayer can be part of the journey toward greater self-awareness and a deeper relationship with God. As we show up vulnerably with God, we can experience peace and reconciliation inside ourselves. As we experience greater peace and unity, this same peace and unity flow to our community. 

In the process, we wait in the light. This journey of transformation is passive on our part. The invitation, for each of us, is to show up in it.  As we wait in the light, we can begin to see our own belovedness in God’s gaze. We begin to surrender to that very place, our belovedness and God’s reminder that God is always for us!

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